wow, long time no write.  I'm doing ok, hope everyone else is too.

Basically been doing the whole school thing - getting up, wasting seven or w/e hours at school, going home and going to bed.  Same thing...over...and over...and over...but summer's almost here. 10 more school days!

Sorry to anyone who still cares about me on here, that i havent really updated...like...at all...i've just been really apathetic about the whole thing. lo siento. 

Miss mi amor.  Christian's at work right now, but i might go visit him *ponder* it'll be 18 months in like three weeks? haha, not that i'm counting or anything. 

Ok wow, that was my lovely entry.  Hopefully i'll do more of these

"Ignorant"

So today was a bad day. horah for that. Basically, i dont have my reading book because all the bookstores sold out then all day people were talking about it and it stressed me out. i really hated it...

yesterday i burned the top of my roof of my mouth off.  Iunno...like some skin from the roof of my mouth peeled off and now its sore and i cant have even my tongue touch it, let alone my food!  So that's kinda been pissing me off all day.

I was fine. i was perfectly fine today. Until lunch. Every conversation my friends had before i left offended me in some way.  According to their comments, which wasnt necessarily about me, but applied to me, I'm "ignorant" and im "not necessarily fit to be colorguard captain." im not sure if i even want to be captain after that conversation.  So it kinda hurt that my friends were stabbing me in the heart without knowing it. i mean, they were having a conversation, but it just ended up that everything they were bashing, involved me. It really sucked. 

Worst of all was being called ignorant.  That was what did me in...  Me...ignorant?  The label i used to give to all other high schools back in ninth grade. Suddenly, im labeled with it.  I never saw myself as ignorant, so it hurt being called that...it hurt pretty bad. And the problem was, it probably wasnt meant to hurt. It was probably just supposed to be a jab in my morale, but it ended up being more like a stab. 

Then I dont want to do the fucking project my lit teacher assigned us.  Everyone else is excited...But who do i have in my group??? Ani, Anita, and Clio.  Clio, my friend, will not be able to do much cuz she is leaving this weekend. So im stuck with two people who will take this seriously and i wont have any fun and we'll probably fail anyways.  So im not excited about that.  So it kinda sucks

Everyone tells me that people love me.  THey tell me not to feel worthless because everyone loves me.  But its from my best friends that i crave the most love. And sometimes i feels like they dont want to give it.  I give everything to them, and i know they care. I dont know why im complaining, its just sometimes...i wish they actually loved me, like they say people do.

hey guys! sorry i havent been on in forever, done comments, or anything. I've been SUPER busy.  I have a hectic couple of weeks coming up. lets see, next week is colorguard, an early realease day and i have to work consessions. then the next week i have colorguard and then SAT that satuday  Teacher work day the monday after with colorguard tryouts that whole week! so that'll be interesting. and then after t hat is Graduation tests. Spring is always soooo busy for me.  But thanks for those who hyve been patient witht he comments.

www.xanga.com/FourElements_OneSoul. GO THERE to read my fan fic. i've added a lot. and this past chapter is a plot twister, so i hope you've been reading!!!

Other than that, Prom is on April 14th and im going to that with my bf and my friends! its caused a lot of havoc, but i think it'lll be fun!

What else...i have a GIANT paper due on monday and im trying to write it. So wish me luck!  Colorguard captain stuff is the next couple weeks, so i have to be on good behaviour...cuz you know...im such a bad person   then on monday i find out if im in newspaper staff next year and that'll be awesome! i hope i do *crosses fingers*  Tuesday we sign up for next year's classes.  Senior year should pretty much rock.  This is what my schedule is going to look like (i don tknow about hte period, these are just the classes i want to take)

AP Pyschology (probably spelled wrong)

AP European History (it sounds like APWH and i loved that class)

AP Literature (Just readng a bunch of novels)

Yearbook (i was in the staff last year and i get to stay in it)

Newspaper (HOPEFULLY!!!)

Economics/Personal Fitness (boring, but required to graduate)

So senior year will be diferent. im kinda afraid of it and excited at the smae time!!!! anways, im kinda sick so im going to go take tylonel and chill. LEAVE COMMENTS they make me happy

http://www.medill.northwestern.edu/medill/specialprograms/nhsi/2006.htm

i want to go there SOOOOOO badly. You have noooo idea. It'd be for like a month, so i dont know if its going to happen.

Lock in tonite! Its going to rock although it is missing a few key members *cries* i wish you guys could come!!! This weekend has been eventful and im glad i get a night with my amor, who i havent really talked to in a while. We need tonite to get closer again. It'll be awesome. 

Wrote my rough draft...well i attempted it. My teacher is trying to help me with it, but it still kinda sucks. And im distracted because im packing for the lock in and im listening ot FOB who are amazing. So i guess i'll leave.

LEAVE SOME LOVE

&hearts*

Alyson

PS wish you could be with me tonite!

Ok. i was going to do a quick entry, but i guess i'll do a normal one???

Biz Christian and I went to stars and Strikes. I suck at laser tag, but that is to be expected. Uhhhh Then i got home around like 10:00 and bed by 11:00, yeah. i know im cool.  Then i got up at eight this morning to go to a stupid veterans day thing which was a little dissapointing really...? I felt bad for all the veterans and i was really nervous around them. But w/e its over. I got home and i went to the mall with biz. We didnt buy anything. Surprise surprise. But thats alright. We went home and did homework. Living together basically.

So i really really really really wanna got to this Northwestern thing up in chicago this summer. It looks soooo cool, i'll have to put up the link. I wanna be a cherub!!!! but it might not happen this summer,  but we'll see!

Uh...weekends going good. i have the lock in tomorow night and i have a research paper to write tomorow.

Basically that's been my life. ENJOY!

&hearts*

Alyson